Avoiding God

Posted on May 30, 2013 by Ben

Why do we hide from Him
In hours spent
Not even thinking
About what we are doing

Why do we avoid Him
By hiding in Facebook
Or losing ourselves in Twitter
We love to be immersed in nonsense

Why do we stand Him up
To spend time with Hollywood
Giving our hours to those
Who love to do the things He hates

Why do we listen
To the voices of people
Singing about all kinds of sin
When there’s a Perfect voice that wants to talk

Why do we choose to be busy
With things that can wait
When we could spend time
With the Creator of the Universe

Why do we prefer anything
To the silent thought
Which is an amazing place
Where He loves to meet us

Why don’t we take our fear and doubt
Our worries about what other people think
Put them in a big old bag
And chuck them in the bin

Why don’t you go and spend some time with God
And, after that, you can do the other stuff
He doesn’t want to take your life
He just wants to be in it
And help you to move in the right direction

Contradiction Man

Posted on May 2, 2013 by Ben

If you thought yesterday was bad
Let me tell you some more
Although if you told me to listen
I probably wouldn’t

You see:

If someone tells me
Something’s wrong
I say
Don’t be stupid

When they tell me
Everything’s alright
I find something
That isn’t

If they tell me
I can’t have something
I’ll probably take it
Or get my own

But if they say
I can have it or even – I need it
That’s the last thing
I’m going to get

I doubt the truth
But I believe lies

The more I want to stop doing certain things
The more I seem to crave them

I remember to forget
The things I don’t want to do
But I forget to remember
What got me into that situation in the first place
So I carry on

I have compassion for bad people
That I don’t know
But if someone good that I love
Does something wrong
They’d better apologise

I like people I don’t know
But have no time for my friends

When I was poor
I had practically nothing
I made do – worked hard
Had no possessions
Was happy – fit and healthy
I prospered

Then people felt sorry for me
Gave me money
I got richer – worked less
Bought ‘good’ things
They took my happiness – I became corrupted
Now I’m a mess

Sweet things
Make me bitter
And bitter things
Make me sweet

I diet and put on weight
I sleep and get tired
Relaxing winds me up
Stress makes me feel at home – That’s my life

I know God is here
But I can’t see Him
He never changes
But I experience Him differently each day

He made me sad
To bring me to happiness
He broke me
To build me up

Now I love God
With all my heart
But I continue to fill my heart
With things God hates

It seems that
The things that are so ‘good’
Can be worse
Than the bad things that turn out to be
Just what the doctor ordered

I find that the closer I get to the Truth
The further I get from my reality

At least my contradictions agree with each other
But if they don’t
I guess you’re getting to know me
I’m contradiction man